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if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault and it will be given to him. James 1 :5
has the promise still been kept? cause if it has, i gta decide. decide if its worth giving another shot, not giving up, not letting go. waiting ; holding on.
argh, how i wish holidays were here, i have like 3 tests tomorrow and chinese study camp later. dont get me wrong but i totally thought that the reason of headstart was just to motivate quick and easy learning, covering the syllabus and not having such tests? woaw. this is awesome. i left my history tb in class :/
its been a long while. since i have been alive. 15 years and yet, i am still so immature, to tell myself not to cry when it hurts the most to tell myself to bottle up my feelings. to tell myself to create a wall from others.
why Ruth, Why are you so selfish? because I am, who I am.
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change used to be so indifferent for me. i used to believe that one had to have changne in his or her life to continue. but yet here i am. among everyone, i am pretty much one of the slowest persons to adapt. then again, do i ever. i honestly believe that i have gone through so much more than some people.its unfair to me. i want to scream shout. but then. where would it fall? on empty ears nonetheless.
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i love you. i knew you for 15 years why, just why can't you love me to?
